stress, Uncategorized

Waiting…. and waiting….

Well the test result came back. I just can’t read them. So I’m waiting to hear from my allergist.

16u1qhNaturally, I looked up what all these tests that were done on me looked for and what the results could mean. Googled it all. You really shouldn’t do that, by the way. It made everything worse. I still have no answer but I could have everything from an infection to be dying of cancer to absolutely nothing wrong. Curse you google- letting me ponder that I have something serious going on.

I suspect whatever I have is obviously not a good thing.

Or do I have anything wrong at all?

And I have to wait until tomorrow.

lifestyle, stress, type 1 diabetes

Oh, so it’s not Diabetic related?

I spoke to another older type 1. I learned a thing or two and something came as a shocker. Some things I thought were just my diabetes were not at all diabetic related.

  • gaining weight for no reason
  • inability to lose weight
  • random allergies and the sudden appearance of new ones
  • high white blood cells count

 

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Now I will say this: I AM SCARED. I am scared for whatever my body is doing this time. I shouldn’t have googled autoimmune disorders, but I was curious. Everyone is telling me I just have allergies not yet discovered. But what are they this time?

I already have had a lot of foods taken from me. I’m allergic to garlic and onion. I’m allergic to fruit and veggies not cooked (birch-wood allergy). Then allergic to soy too. I also don’t eat plain nuts just for safety. But I’ve discovered I’m allergic to sensitive teeth toothpaste and now all of a sudden I’m allergic to deodorant. Many antibiotics I can’t have either (this really makes doctors nervous of me even more). Every new food or product or medicine I try I fear I’ll be allergic to.

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I am finally going to just go and see an allergist and get testing done. I guess if something further is wrong- I’ll give it to God because Lord, I cannot deal with another illness.

Me and this other type 1 talked for two hours.  Her conclusion is seeing more doctors to get to the bottom of things needed to happen. I’ve kinda known this to be true all along, just no one ever brought it to my attention. I didn’t know what to do.

So this is another thing I must trust God with. I’ll make myself a nervous wreck if I try and control what’s wrong. I can’t control it anyway. Whatever it may be, it is already in my body. I can do this. I already have type 1 diabetes, right?

 

 

 

lifestyle, type 1 diabetes

My Big Purse

I’ve become known for my purse at work. It’s big, I get that. Diabetics are known for big purses. I just muttered to them “It’s for medical reasons.”  My big grey studded floppy purse doesn’t even fit in the locker they provided me. I just ram it in and make it look half way decent.

It took awhile to even find this large purse, but when I finally found one I was so happy! It didn’t cost a fortune either, which was difficult enough. What they want for a purse is ridiculous.

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It’s a great purse because it holds all my diabetic stuff. I even got a special little wallet/ purse to hold my supplies and it’s pink. Hooray girly stuff! It holds insulin, an inset, a needle, has a little trash bag, extra this and extra that. And can you believe that sucker isn’t big enough?! I still don’t have enough room for all my diabetic stuff in it, so things just float in my giant purse.

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So after my big bag becoming a joke at work and realizing this bag really should be locked up (an insulin vial costs quite a bit) I decided to give in. I bought a diabetic purse. An actual purse made for diabetics exists! The purse is made by myabetic and is called the Cherise Diabetes Handbag. I got it in “Paradise Blue.”

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The center is where I’ll carry all my goodies as shown above. It’s a more organized and concise purse, so I should be able to lock it up at work. It’s also a lot bigger in the center than my pink wallet/purse is. There are also two pouches on the sides of the center wallet to carry other things.

So take that! My purse won’t need to be the classic huge-as-hell-diabetes-bag. It will be an organized expensive purse.  Most women have those right? Ugh, my bag is still special.

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food, husband, lifestyle

Get yourself a man that can do both!

I was diagnosed in my second year of marriage. We two were driving along when I got the phone call that I was sick and had diabetes. He saw I was about to cry and immediately wanted to know what was wrong. My life changed that day.

I’ve heard from friends and the internet that relationships can be affected by diabetes. I wondered if my honeymoon phase would be over like so many other people and the struggle would begin. Other relationships have ended due to diabetes. The significant other didn’t want to put up with it, eat the same way, refused to learn anything, and showed no support. I’ve heard dating is a struggle too. My girlfriends have been dumped JUST because they were diabetic.

Luckily I got myself a man that is supportive. He’s driven me to the ER and goes to my endocrinologist visits. He eats like I do (if not healthier) and even went on the Paleo diet with me. He’s decided to go to medical school and minor in nutrition. I motivate him and inspire him. He does the same for me.. Maybe it’s due to my husband being European so eating differently comes natural and he already didn’t eat like an American.  Maybe that is Nordic culture. Yet- I’d like to think Americans can be just as supportive of their diabetic spouses.

It’s really important to find someone that can support your health. The priest does say “in sickness and in health” right?

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