lifestyle, stress, type 1 diabetes

Oh, so it’s not Diabetic related?

I spoke to another older type 1. I learned a thing or two and something came as a shocker. Some things I thought were just my diabetes were not at all diabetic related.

  • gaining weight for no reason
  • inability to lose weight
  • random allergies and the sudden appearance of new ones
  • high white blood cells count

 

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Now I will say this: I AM SCARED. I am scared for whatever my body is doing this time. I shouldn’t have googled autoimmune disorders, but I was curious. Everyone is telling me I just have allergies not yet discovered. But what are they this time?

I already have had a lot of foods taken from me. I’m allergic to garlic and onion. I’m allergic to fruit and veggies not cooked (birch-wood allergy). Then allergic to soy too. I also don’t eat plain nuts just for safety. But I’ve discovered I’m allergic to sensitive teeth toothpaste and now all of a sudden I’m allergic to deodorant. Many antibiotics I can’t have either (this really makes doctors nervous of me even more). Every new food or product or medicine I try I fear I’ll be allergic to.

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I am finally going to just go and see an allergist and get testing done. I guess if something further is wrong- I’ll give it to God because Lord, I cannot deal with another illness.

Me and this other type 1 talked for two hours.  Her conclusion is seeing more doctors to get to the bottom of things needed to happen. I’ve kinda known this to be true all along, just no one ever brought it to my attention. I didn’t know what to do.

So this is another thing I must trust God with. I’ll make myself a nervous wreck if I try and control what’s wrong. I can’t control it anyway. Whatever it may be, it is already in my body. I can do this. I already have type 1 diabetes, right?

 

 

 

insulin, stress, type 1 diabetes

The Lord and Diabetes

This is a hard topic for me. Many bad things have happened in my life that I got angry with God for. Diabetes wasn’t one of them.

I honestly did not curse God or anything like that. I didn’t have long prayers saying to Him why me or asking why he chose to do this to me. I finally got the picture. I got the point. Do you know that song with that line “Jesus take the wheel?” It’s like that. I am learning to give up control.

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Today, I saw my endocrinologist. I am doing what I am supposed to. Testing, taking insulin, working out. . . .My body, however, is not responding like it should. I still have high blood sugars that are dangerous. I admitted to the fear of having a low blood sugar. The fear of going into a coma, stroke, or death doesn’t seem strange, now does it? It’s my life. So do I live in constant fear or allow God to deal with it?